Lately, I haven’t felt motivated to do anything. But today, something was different. I don’t know what it was, but I actually felt motivated and that felt good!
The morning didn’t start out good, although Mondays are always tough for me. I didn’t want to get out of bed. But, I knew Lani needed me and I knew that I had to get up for her. So, eventually I got out of bed, fed her breakfast, and we went for our morning walk. And that’s where my morning changed. Something clicked in my head and I actually wanted to leave the house and do something!
I decided to go to the library in town. So, I got in my car… and the engine wouldn’t turn over! My car was completely dead! I called my husband, who was already at work, to tell him my car was dead. He asked me to try honking the horn, and when I said the horn worked he informed me it was probably just the battery and to see if the Super of our complex was home and could jump my car for me. I told my husband that I would just walk to the library, it’s only a mile up the road, I can totally walk it, but he said no.
See, we live on a highway. Our entire town is on a highway. Yes, it’s a rural highway, but still it’s busy and there are no sidewalks or anywhere to walk. The only way you can walk the highway is to walk along the shoulder of the road into town and hope you don’t get hit by a car (trust me, that happens a lot in my town). Once you’re in town there are sidewalks for a few blocks, and then it goes back to no sidewalks again. So, my husband’s worries are completely valid, and why he doesn’t want me to walk along the highway makes perfect sense. So, walking was out of the question.
Luckily, our Super was home and after probably a good 10 or 15 minutes we got my car started. But, here’s the good thing, and something I am so proud of. I was motivated! Even when my car didn’t start, instead of just giving up and going back inside, I actually had the motivation and wanted to go somewhere, even if it was only for a few minutes! I was motivated to get my car started or find a ride to the library. I was motivated to do something!!! That’s a HUGE step for me because I haven’t really had any motivation lately.
And it didn’t just stop there!
I got to the library, took out some items, and then came home. But, when I came home I was still motivated to do things… so I cleaned!!! And it made me feel good! I didn’t do anything crazy, but even just throwing out trash, organizing, dusting… it made me feel good!!!
So, today went from a bad day where I didn’t want to get out of bed, to finding motivation and wanting to be productive! HUGE STEPS for me today and I am so proud of myself!
Sometimes, it honestly is the littlest things that can make such a huge difference.