Depression

Nothing.

There is nothing.

I am nothing.

Nothing matters.

I’m floating in darkness.

There is no way out.

There is no light.

There is no hope.

There’s nothing.

There is no way to save me.

No one can save me.

I can’t stop crying.

I hate myself.

I don’t know what to do.

And yet maybe if I write,

People will understand

What it feels like

To live with Depression.

Getting dressed takes effort.

Brushing my hair take effort.

Getting out of bed takes effort.

I don’t want to eat.

I just want to sleep.

And drift away.

Forever.

I don’t want to feel.

Everything hurts.

I’m floating.

And yet…

My husband’s embrace

can ground me.

My daughters’ kisses

can ground me.

And momentarily

I’m in the land of the living.

But, then I drift away.

And this

Is what it feels like

To live with Depression.

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